Rawr

From 2011-01-17

My sweet little lion is an emotional anomoly. I find it so intriguing because he just CAME that way. I might call him a stoic. He supresses all emotions but he feels things very deeply. When he giggles, his eyes close tight and his smile is tiny and bunched up. His shoulders shake and all you hear is a barely audible high pitched happy noise. You literally share his joy. When he gets hurt he jumps up, shakes it off, and makes some joke about how he meant to do that, or hes okay, and that didn't really hurt. Even though I hug him and tell him it is okay to be hurt, he just Wont be. He will only cry when his little heart breaks right in two- if his sister does not want to play with him or he can no longer deal with the fact that he is the youngest and smallest in the family. Then, he will disappear into his room and hide all the way under his bed to cry. It is heart wrenching. But I know he does not want me to draw attention to his sadness because he wipes his tears and presents a fresh face to the world. He is also very embarassed if we single him out in any way. John and I went to his First Grade performance today of Aesops Fables. It was mid-day (WHY do they do that?). I knew it was really important to him that we were there but you would never know from appearances.